dream

last night i woke up from a bad dream, or should i say a nightmare. in the dream, i was in what seems to be my sister’s house, but i’m with my bestfriend, and my sister wasn’t there, we’re kinda waiting for her. then out of the blue, a beatiful woman, came to the door. she’s very elegant, very calm, she looks rich and dignified. she has this peace around her. she seem so familiar to me, she has these moles in each side of her nose, you know where the tears usually fall, very black and very visible. she seem so familiar. and then, suddenly i realized that these woman is my mom, but she’s nowhere the mom that i know. it looks like this is the woman that my mom should have been if she was rich, that this is how my mom would have looked, if she has no problem at all in the world. after realizing that this is my mom, i became very frightened, coz i just realized that the woman is wearing a black sleeveless blouse with black stones on it, black skirt, black shoes, black bracelet, black necklace, even her hair is jetblack. and my mom never wears black. for some reason, this made me very very afraid. she seems to be going, and so i reached for her hand, grab her even, for fear that she will be gone. she looked at me, surprised, afraid. and then she was gone, vanished into thin air. i screamed and screamed for my mom and she was gone. when i woke up, my heart was beating so fast that i could not breath, my body feels so tired, and i cried, and cried. i feel so cold and so afraid.